EC Wanted!

Alright, I've decided that I'm not settling anymore. I'm sick of waiting for guys to want me and then just turn around and try and change me into the girls they want. I want a man that will love me for the way I am. I want commitment to me. So ya... Find any guys like this, let me know...

I've got the Red Fever!!

So I'm considering changing my hair color... What do you think?!?

True T-Bird Night

Ya... It wasn't all it was cracked up to be. My friend Clyde and I ended up kissin, just because we were standing by each other. It was a bust...

My Morgue

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My True Love...

Who ever thought this would happen?!?

Hey so I want to be honest. John and his two sisters came down this weekend. He didn't want to be home because he was worried about stuff happening that would throw off his attempt to get back on track. He's taking a huge step right now and just needed a weekend of fun to keep his mind off what he was giving up. This weekend was a HUGE rave that he had tickets to go to in California and he didn't go. I'm very proud of his decision to do that. His sisters came because they both needed to get out of the house. Right now their grandma is recovering from a triple bi-pass and they all needed a weekend to keep their minds off of it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you when you called this weekend. I was scared you'd get mad or upset. John and I are not together. We have talked about the idea of us getting back together and both has expressed our concerns about it. I have told him my goals and that I'm not settling for anything less than the temple and I'm starting to be more selective with the guys I date because of that reason. He understands what being with me is going to mean for him and his lifestyle. However he isn't doing all of theses changes for me. I've specifically asked him that and he says no. He's doing because he wants more in his life than drugs and all of that.
He's currently just taking it one step at a time and I am supporting him through the whole thing. I know you are very concerned and I completely understand those concerns because I share them. I'm not going to change. I've enjoyed being me again and I'm not giving that up. I'm not puttin my blinders up either. I'm not going to not date just because John is back in my life. I've told him that and we both agree that it is a good idea. Lol it's not like I'm getting asked out anyways lol!!! I really feel this is what needs to happen. Something about this feels right. I'm not going to turn my back on him when he really needs my support. He's almost out of friends, especially friends who are strong in the church. This week cost him all of the friends he considered his close friends in California. Right now he needs support and I'm asking you to help me support him. I know that the things he's done are hard to forget, trust me they hurt me like lemonade in a paper cut, but he needs me and I need your support. This is going to be a tough situation but I hope for the best. I know that he's done a lot of things and I'm in the process of forgiving him of those so him and I can be friends. And I'm going to need a lot of strength for that to happen. Don't worry you're not going to lose me.. I don't want anything to compromise my relationship with my family anymore. I love you. I hope you can understand why I am doing this. I can't say no when I know I can help.
~Kayt.

Bring Your Cat To Work Today

So, as stated before, my astronomy class is SOOOOOOOOOOO boring!! Today however, excitement happened... Approximately four seats down form me is a girl with a kitten on her lap. A REAL LIVE BABY CAT!!! Ha ha ha ha... I'm amused!

ADD

I swear I can't pay attention in my Astronomy class. I haven't learned a single thing yet. My Professor tends to ramble... on...and... on... get my point?? By the end of class I'm really confused on what he was trying to get to. Like today, he's rambling of exactly what he talked about last time even though he said he was going to go over our questions.Well... Maybe I'll try listening now, maybe...

Halloween Makeup Ideas

SUU!!!!

Tonight a great achievement happened... SUU FOOTBALL WON A GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was an awesome game!!

Evil?

Am I evil??
Tonight I was supposed to go watch a movie with this kid at his house. I don't know him real well but I thought it would be fun. About an hour before he was to pick me up, I got scared. Not just nervous scared but like my spidey sense was tingling funky kind of scared. I texted him and told him something came up and that I was sorry. He seemed mad... I think I burnt that bridge. So am I evil? Was I just nervous and weird or did I do the right thing? Cause now I'm sitting in my empty apartment eating Hamburger Helper all by myself because I didn't make any other plans because I thought I'd be watching a movie right now...

Life In Crazyville

It always seems that life has a funny way of going crazy. I've been asked to help someone who has hurt me terribly bad. I can't say no and turn my back on someone that might need my help. I've always said I care too much. I've been told that it's a weakness. Lately, though, I've been thinking, how is that a weakness? How is being able to give up one's self and put feeling aside in order to help some one a weakness? I view it as a strength. Being able to be a strength when others lack, a light in a dark place and a hope when hope has been lost.
I know some of you reading this know who I am talking about and I know the concerns that are arising because I share them too. I've become myself again and now when I look in the mirror I am finally happy with the girl I see. I'm not giving that up anymore. I've decided that giving up me is much too much of a price to pay for a boy.
I've decide though that I am going to help him with only what he asks for. I'm not going to force him to change anything he doesn't want. I'm here to be a support and a friend. Please keep him in your prayers and also me because I'm going to need a ton of strength because things are pretty tough with him.
Well that's my thoughts and welcome to my new blog. My other blog will probably still be used too so feel free to check it out!