Who ever thought this would happen?!?

Hey so I want to be honest. John and his two sisters came down this weekend. He didn't want to be home because he was worried about stuff happening that would throw off his attempt to get back on track. He's taking a huge step right now and just needed a weekend of fun to keep his mind off what he was giving up. This weekend was a HUGE rave that he had tickets to go to in California and he didn't go. I'm very proud of his decision to do that. His sisters came because they both needed to get out of the house. Right now their grandma is recovering from a triple bi-pass and they all needed a weekend to keep their minds off of it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you when you called this weekend. I was scared you'd get mad or upset. John and I are not together. We have talked about the idea of us getting back together and both has expressed our concerns about it. I have told him my goals and that I'm not settling for anything less than the temple and I'm starting to be more selective with the guys I date because of that reason. He understands what being with me is going to mean for him and his lifestyle. However he isn't doing all of theses changes for me. I've specifically asked him that and he says no. He's doing because he wants more in his life than drugs and all of that.
He's currently just taking it one step at a time and I am supporting him through the whole thing. I know you are very concerned and I completely understand those concerns because I share them. I'm not going to change. I've enjoyed being me again and I'm not giving that up. I'm not puttin my blinders up either. I'm not going to not date just because John is back in my life. I've told him that and we both agree that it is a good idea. Lol it's not like I'm getting asked out anyways lol!!! I really feel this is what needs to happen. Something about this feels right. I'm not going to turn my back on him when he really needs my support. He's almost out of friends, especially friends who are strong in the church. This week cost him all of the friends he considered his close friends in California. Right now he needs support and I'm asking you to help me support him. I know that the things he's done are hard to forget, trust me they hurt me like lemonade in a paper cut, but he needs me and I need your support. This is going to be a tough situation but I hope for the best. I know that he's done a lot of things and I'm in the process of forgiving him of those so him and I can be friends. And I'm going to need a lot of strength for that to happen. Don't worry you're not going to lose me.. I don't want anything to compromise my relationship with my family anymore. I love you. I hope you can understand why I am doing this. I can't say no when I know I can help.
~Kayt.