Into my brain

I've pondered life, time and time again and it never stops surprising me. Just when you think you know what's going to happen... BAM... a complete one-eighty happens and you back in a different place from where you want to be. I've figured out that when I try and control my life it glances back at me saying, "Na na na na na, you can't catch me." Life isn't about controlling it, it's about living it; rolling with the punches, exploring new frontiers, and being curious. Now I'm not saying that one should go out and try everything. Some things should be left to the unknown. We should stop trying to control our life because it's no fun and frankly it's way too complicated. Just know God knows what's going to happen. He's got His agenda and it never falters. Just think about that next time you try and tell Him what's best for you.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

My Weekend... OY!

This weekend was crazy! Let me explain:

Friday

I arrived home around 1pm. I then started helping Mom and Bill get ready for the HUGE dinner that night. Around 3ish Charles text me, asking me if I wanted to hang out, of course I say yes. So I picked him up at his house and from them we went to a park and played on the swings, cuddled and talked to 2 hours. I've yet to grow tired of our talks. After I reluctantly dropped him off at his house, I headed back to help in the mad dash at the house.

The party was... fine... I'm really not a huge fan of large groups crammed into my house. As the hours ticked on I got nervous for my double/blind date at 8pm. My friend, Shay's, boyfriend's friend was in need of a date and so I got roped into a date. His name was Josh. They picked me up at 8pm sharp and from there we drove to Iggy's Sports Grill. I ate very little due to the fact I'd already eaten and wasn't expecting to be fed.

After dinner we went to Kevin's (Shay's boyfriend) house to watch the Strangers. I absolutely HATE scary movies. I'm not very brave so I thought at least I'm sitting by a cute boy that could "protect" me. So the movie started and as it got scarier I slid closer to Josh for comfort... the movie got even scarier... nothing. It got to the point where I was cowering in his arm practically shaking and still he sat there. He didn't even put his arm around me. So finally, Kevin's dog jumped up on the couch next to me and cuddled me. I had to snuggle a dog because I was so scared!!!!! ARE YOU SERIOUS???? Isn't that why scary movies were invented, so that girls would cuddle guys? O well... according to Shay, Josh really liked me and thought I was really cute. Hmmmm.....

Saturday

Most of the day was spent getting ready for Witches' Night Out. My outfit rocked if I must say so. I was a 50's witch. At Gardener Village, we (Mom, Aunt Cathy, Amanda, Randee, Amanda... Randee's friend, Tiffany, and me) pranced around like witches. We ate a ton, I had my picture taken a bunch. That was weird posing for strangers. It was way fun. It was my first time going and most definitely not my last. I even got to dance around on stage during the Witches' Parade. All in all I had a really fun time!

On my way home, John and I started texting because we were going to hang out and try being friends. He was already out with a group of friends bowling and so he invited me to meet them there.

Here is where we need to rewind and look at a side note... Derek, my ex-boyfriend who I sent off on his mission when I was a senior in High School who I broke up with for John, came home at the first of the month. I've been really nervous to see him again.

So I show up at the Bowling Alley, after giving myself a pep talk that I could do this. As I walk in the door guess who I see...Not only is John there but Brittany (The girl John got with after we broke up, who John had recently broken up with when he decided he wanted to change), Jer (John's cousin) and to top it all of... Derek. I was completely unprepared to see him! Turns out, John and Brittany thought it would be hilarious to see the look on not only my face but Derek's face when I walked in. I was completely uncomfortable. I made John go outside and I punched him and yelled at him, saying how unfunny this was. I tried to make it not awkward but I couldn't handle it. I left after 20 minutes, furious, hurt, upset, etc. I went home, cried for a bit and then crashed.

Sunday

Derek's homecoming was at 11. Mom came along to be my strength. I walked in the chapel and guess who once again was there.... Not only Brittany (who barely knew Derek) but John also. He came with his cousin, Jer, is friends with Derek. But why did he come. There was no good reason for him to be there but to hurt me. When I walked in and saw him I immediately ran out and sat in the bathroom for a few minutes because I was so upset.

Derek's talk was amazing. I cried the entire time. Whether it was because I was so upset or the spirit was so strong or I was kicking myself... I don't know. But His talk was amazing. After church, Mom and I went over to Derek's house. Mom chatted with his family while Derek and I chatted. He hasn't changed one bit. It was nice talking to him.

That night I flew home to Cedar City, and that was the end of my weekend.

1 comment:

Amanda said...

Here's my little bit of sister advice. The best way to get a creepy guy to stop tormenting you? Stop reacting. Don't let John see you upset. Don't yell at him, or try to reason with him. He'll never change, and he only does these childish things to hurt you. Just don't respond to his texts, emails or whatever. Trust me. This has been the only way I've been able to regain my sanity. Once he sees that he can't upset you. he'll stop. He is SO not worth it!!